it's Nita.

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I wrote this piece some years back as a way of making sense of that which does not always make sense–faith.

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I dare not say I’ve arrived.

No, I dare not say I’ve reached the level of conscious to which my mind has awakened to the peculiarities of this world.

No, I dare not say I’ve unraveled the mysteries that lie beneath the waves or that drift in dunes or that lurk in the never-ending space.

No, I dare not say I’ve arrived at this level of knowledge for I am in favor of those things unseen. The miraculous wonders that occur at a level not privy to mine eye, those things outside of space and time. The kind of changes in arrhythmias that makes me think, “Lord, are you real?”

…there’s a beauty in that. Those subtle waves pulsing, rising, falling and then a jolt of revelation. A calm clarity that follows and reassurance in my otherwise mirky and incomplete understanding.

I hear the answer to my heart’s question–Yes. It’s a leap of faith. It’s free-falling into knowing and be known. The Lord of the universe is mindful of me.

Yes, I dare to believe in God. The inexplicable, unimaginable, indescribable and yet so near, close and personal.

Yes, I dare to have faith in those unseen things.

God of heaven, Lord of everything. I dare not say I’ve arrived but Lord I dare to believe.

And that’s enough…faith, the size of a mustard seed.

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"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:13

" 'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.' " Jeremiah 33:3

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Nita.