[putting away all those childish things]

This was my Facebook status 12 years ago, today. I was 19 and I was the end of my freshman year in college. Outwardly, my life was great. Academically I was thriving! but inside I was very broken, fearful and insecure of my place within my friendships/relationships. So what was my best solution? Go along to get along. Do things as I saw my peers doing and as I felt doing (because duh this will be the best four years of my life. YOLO.) and surely all would be well. Surely, I would finally be happy and content if I just filled my desires.

Well, it was not so… I am still healing emotionally, spiritually and in some ways physically from years of “fun”. (See my post on how I started discovering the true root of my issues).

In hindsight, it’s all so very clear that if I could be vulnerable enough to ask for help, I could have avoided so much heartache for myself and others. Alas, the sum of my life experiences have made me who I am today but I do believe there is worth in reflection and passing on wisdom to anyone who cares to listen (or in this case read).

Takeaway: You may or may not be a teenager but the fact remains… there is a love greater than the pit and void you are trying to fill. I would tell younger me to be honest with herself, seek spiritual wisdom and get help instead of burying insecurity, loneliness and hurt with parties and pleasures. I’ll tell you reader to do the same. ❤️

Temporary pleasures are only temporary fixes but you were built for more! There’s a glory in you waiting to burst forth and shine!

#growup #glowup

His love always!

-Nita